There are times when I feel like a rock, forever entrenched on the ground. I work so hard to reach a certain goal, but I never manage to obtain it. It's just too difficult. I felt like I gave it my all, but there's always someone better, stronger, more qualified. Maybe it's because I'm not there in person. Maybe I still don't have enough experience. Regardless, I feel stuck. But I have to move, but I'll be uplifted and placed down somewhere where I can't escape.

I want to be successful and live comfortably without threat. Maybe it's too soon. Maybe it's too late. Maybe I will never succeed. Maybe my peak has already passed. I feel like a B+ compared to a grade A. Affirmative action will only take me so far. Being young and earnest will only go so far.

I need to break free and land success. I cannot be complacent. I need to learn and evolve before it's too late.